something happened

For Leonard

Dearest,

I feel certain that I'm going

mad again: I feel we can't go

through another of these terrible times.

And I shant recover this time.I begin

to hear voices, and cant concentrate.

So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have

given me the greatest possible happiness. You

have been in every way all that anyone

could be. I dont think two

people could have been happier till

this terrible disease came. I cant

fight it any longer, I know that I am

spoiling your life, that without me you

could work. And you will I know.

You see I cant even write this properly. I

cant read. What I want to say is that

I owe all the happiness of my life to you.

You have been entirely patient with me and

incredibly good. I want to say that－

everybody knows it. If anybody could

have saved me it would have been you.

Everything has gone from me but the

certainty of your goodness. I

cant go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two

people

could have been happier than we have been.

V.